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May 25th, 2008

06:21 am - 11 Thank you to everyone who came to our little holiday get together. I hope you all enjoyed yourselves as much as we did. Mum hasn't had the chance to throw a party in years. I daresay she's planning a New Year's one now. Oy. [private to self] My dearest Hermione, It is our first Christmas without you. The children missed you. Oh, they loved their presents alright, but something was missing. I know it won't feel like this forever, but we'll never forget. We lit a candle for you at Mass. I love you, sweetheart. Your charmer, Teddy Current Mood: okay

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March 23rd, 2008

06:19 am - 10 [hexed to those he considers family which means malfoy adults, weasley adults, and the potters] I'm not sure how else to take care of him. One day he seems fine and the next he won't even go outside to play. The girls, bless their beautiful hearts, seem to have moved on. In one way, I feel I should try harder to remind them of her, but I don't want to upset them. They love being with their grandparents and...it is so hard thinking they won't remember her, but I don't want to keep the wound open for them either. Billy has a fever and he can barely keep anything down. That I can handle. What I can't handle are the sobs because I can't fix it. He wants his mother and I can't give her to him no matter how much he cries. I'm not enough and it kills me. He's sleeping right besides me now, but when he wakes up it will be more of the same... I want whatever bastards did this to her found. I don't care what it costs. There has to be a way.

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March 10th, 2008

12:43 pm - 9 [adults only] I am so sorry I've been concentrating on my children and not going out of my way to respond to every last 'Teddy, I am so sorry, can I help you? Let's get you out of the house' owl. My wife was murdered and I'm a little more interested in finding her killer and making sure my son's nightmares stop. The only people who have a right to be upset with me? My children since I got their mother killed. Current Mood: infuriated

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February 24th, 2008

02:23 pm - 8 [hexed to weasley adults (including wives!), draco, angus, tracey, lucius and, after some thought, ginny and harry.] I'm an ogre now, aren't I? I know Mum's noticed. She gave me what for after an incident with Billy. She was right, of course. I lost my temper and it had nothing to do with my poor little boy. One thing I never wanted to do was scare my children like Uncle Lucius did me and here I have. I didn't spend any time with Alby when he was here. I haven't seen James or Lily in ages. Salazar, I can't even recall the last time I spoke with Bill or Fred's children. I even forgot Damien's birthday. I'm just...I'm really sorry, everyone. I don't mean to be a rotten father and uncle. Or mate, for that matter. I'll do better, I promise.

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February 21st, 2008

11:49 pm - 7 [hexed to self] I wish everyone would stop trying to help. No one CAN help. No amount of kind words or entrees will heal the hole left in this family. Hermione was the glue that kept us all together. Without her, I'm this bumbling fool trying to pass for a father. Billy can't sleep and the girls keep telling me 'that's not how Mummy does it.' I'm NOT Mummy. I can't be Mummy. I can't kiss the boo-boos the same way or tie bows or cook or... Mum and Dad have been brilliant, but this isn't their job. They already raised a child (two if you count Draco) and this is a time to enjoy their lives. Little Amelia keeps asking after Mummy. Having to explain it to her each and every day is hurting Billy and even Sophia. Sophia may not fully understand what happened, but she knows Mummy's gone now. Amelia keeps thinking Heaven is a vacation spot. Am I explaining wrong or is she simply too young to grasp death? Fred invited me out. I think it will be good for the children, but I've no plans on venturing out right now. The sun is blinding and I just can't...I just can't. Current Mood: depressed

February 9th, 2008

04:18 pm - 6 [hexed to weasley adults, potter adults, and pretty much any adult more aligned with hermione than he] I wish to thank you all for your support. The girls are starting to fully realise that their mother is never coming back so we're crossing that hurdle now. Billy, however, has started to improve emotionally. I think moving into my parents' manor has been beneficial for him. Not to mention I can't stand seeing all the reminders of Hermione at my own home. That said, I wish for you all to understand that I hope you continue taking part in my children's lives. I know you only tolerated me for her sake, but--- I hope you all are faring well. Current Mood: morose

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January 28th, 2008

05:08 pm - 5 [hexed to adults only] Thank you all for your warm words. I do ask that any further items you might wish to send that you send on to St. Mungo's in Hermione's name. Between Mrs. Weasley, Andi, my mother, and all the rest, I do believe we have enough to feed a small army. I assure you none of us will starve. The children are --- well, Amelia and Sophia still ask after her. They don't quite understand though I think as more time passes, the finality will sink in. Billy is distraught. Playing with the other children helped for a bit, but mostly he keeps to himself or my side. There's no way I'm bringing the girls to the funeral. They're much too young. I'm torn as to what to do about Billy, however. I know he'll want to, but he's still a child and he's already having nightmares. I am not sure he can handle seeing his mother like that. [/hex] [hexed to self] My --- She --- I can't even -- the babies --- [/hex to self] [hexed to dad] Dad, I can't do this alone. I just can't. May we move into the Manor? [/hex to dad] Current Mood: exhausted

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January 19th, 2008

02:23 am - 4 [private to self, readable to draco and hermione if they wish] I have enough to worry about with my uncle and my own children without being dragged into the Potter mess. Alright, fine, the damn Gryffindor streak reared its ugly head and I involved myself. But, honestly! Harry was defensive from the first time we spoke, but Ginny? She seemed to understand! The painting might have looked nice, but James never said to put it on the chair! If anything, he was just as shocked about it! I don't understand --- I mean sometimes it is hard to not hold Billy accountable for his siblings' actions especially when he can be mouthy, but --- he is EIGHT. James is NINE. I thought the child was mistaken or exaggerating, but --- Salazar in hell, I want to punch someone. Or something. 'Oh, baby I know you are sorry...' 'James.' 'Don't encourage...' I am still seething. How do they not SEE? My poor nephew. Current Mood: frustrated

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January 14th, 2008

02:00 am - 3 [hexed very private to harry and ginny] I know this is probably none of my business and I should keep my nose out of it, but I keep thinking about my own children and how I'd like to know if they seemed out of sorts and I just can't keep quiet. You know how I spent some time with them yesterday afternoon? Well, it was all pretty pleasant except for this odd exhange between Alby and James. James came in asking to play and Alby got mad so James stuck his tongue out and somehow it ended with James calling Alby a 'mummy's boy' so I decided to discuss matters with James privately. He seems to think his brother never wants to play with him. I got the idea that he feels Alby gets special treatment since he is younger. He kept saying he couldn't talk to you about any of this because he'd just get punished. Now, clearly I know none of this can be true. Merlin knows Billy is envious of his sisters too. It's just --- I felt so badly for the little bloke. I encouraged him to talk to you, but he's nervous. I apologise if this was out of line. Current Mood: worried

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January 11th, 2008

11:56 pm - 2 ( hexed to hermione ) ( hexed to dad and draco ) ( hexed to sabrina ) So who wants ice cream? Current Mood: stressed

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December 15th, 2007

07:43 pm - 1 I want to point out how amusing it is that both my little boy and my wife have made several appearances here while I have not. I apologise for my tardiness! My comments count, however? Please? There isn't much going on in my life to be honest. I already gushed about my beautiful wife and family enough at the anniversary party. Work is going along fine though I think Dad really needs to take a rest. I keep telling him he can trust me with the business, but we all know how he gets. Overprotective to a fault. Nothing at all like ME. Ahem. Know what is the absolute best feeling in the world? Writing this with my two oldest curled up into my side sound asleep. If you excuse me, I think I am going to put this thing down and hold them while they're still willing to allow me to.

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December 10th, 2007

10:35 pm - bio || ooc ( all about teddy )